Tuesday, October 2, 2007

On days forgotten


Have you ever done something so totally stupid that you feel lower that low? If so, you can probably relate to how I'm feeling right about now.

You see I forgot my best friend in all the world's birthday! I know, I know. How could I forget something so important?

Now I do have a host of reasons why the days of late have slipped away from me, including the fact that I spent part of her birthday pulling the car over to the side of the road to throw up (pretty sight, huh)and then driving home and going straight to bed.

But all that really doesn't matter, because I know I've hurt her deeply, even though she'd never say a word about it. Nope, not her. It's just not in her DNA. She continues to put on a smile and go through the days even when she feels unloved and forgotten by those who love her most.

Okay, now I'm even feeling lower, but this isn't about me is it? It's about her.

I guess the part the bothers me the most is what this communicates to her--that she is something of "less" importance in my life when nothing else could be further from the truth.

Why is it that we just take for granted those we love? That we don't let them know how much they mean to us? That we let even one day, any day go by without telling them how much we love them?

I don't have an answer for that. But I can tell you I've had my wake up call. I'm going to say what I feel. Reach out even when the circumstances of the day engulf me and let those folks in my life know and I mean really know how much I love and treasure them.

So this one's for you, my dear friend Melissa. I love you despite what my recent behavior might indicate. You are the "bestest" of best friends a girl could ask for. And why in the world you chose me, an absent minded professor for a friend, I'll never quite understand. I guess that must be one of those God thangs, huh? I am so thankful and blessed beyond measure to have you in my life, even when I don't tell you so.

With much love and lots of regret for missing your "special" day.
~Cheryl

4 comments:

Unknown said...

I totally did this. Yep, I forgot my Best Friends birthday. It was horrible. I felt so bad...but she forgave me and she totally understood!

Don't beat yourself up too bad girl...you are human like the rest of us! Hope you are feeling better!

He Knows My Name said...

if i was a bettin' girl, she's still is your best friend. sometimes life gets in the way, our minds are preoccupied. it sounds like you have alot on your plate lately, i'm sure she'll cut you some slack. good advice about letting those close know how we feel, my dad's real sick and i need to do that instead of just stopping by and caring for his needs i need to tell him some things real soon.

~janel

Dianne said...

Yeah, I have to say, that would be a bad feeling, but I am SURE, as in the above comment, she's still your best friend..that's just how best friends are!

Thanks for your visit to my blog and for your encouragement. It has been a while since I've been back to visit yours...not sure why...but I have LOVED catching up! You've got some great posts!

Profbaugh said...

Just an update on this. My friend, Melissa has of course been most gracious about the whole thing, calling it "no big deal." She said she understands how difficult my life has been lately. Did I call it or what? She's simply the BEST.

I'm taking her out for a special day on Saturday. So if you see fit, keep us in prayer. . .for a really wonderful belated birthday celebration. She deserves nothing but the best.

~Cheryl